i cant lay with anyone without digging open sores around my neck.
sex was supposed to come to me naturally, as it does for everyone.

it still feels like your sweat is wetting my mattress.

youre my biggest regret and my worst mistake. ill never forgive you. ill never forgive any one of you.

i remember when you kept a pet chicken and it fell ill. i remember how your brows furrowed when you realized the obvious, how careful you were, how you did everything to try and stop the inevitable. i would have cut its head off myself, i would have made you cry.

may god save on the people that love you.

may god grant you the privilege of experiencing the mercy i have shown you again.